I just hate how people are snooping into my personal life now. It really isn't any of their business, yet they are "just curious" about it. If I wanted the whole world to know, I would tell everyone, over and over again.

But no, it's the complete opposite; a far-fetched rumor that just began and has continued throughout this whole year. It first started with Ethel, who first brought up the idea. I thought it was absolutely crazy, yet I couldn't answer the question.

Then Karen mentioned it, a couple weeks later, and I just couldn't understand why this was happening. Thinking it was way too far-fetched to be true, I told Katrina, who totally just blurted it out in History class. Thank God no one in History class pays attention to anything.

Well Becka, who is also a friend in our History class, knows too because of KATRINA. D< And then Cynthia...but I'm glad she doesn't really know.

At lunch, Karen would sit with me and a few other friends. She told Erica, and because I always teased her about Raymon, she now uses this against me. ;_;

Sela and Lian sit with us too, but I know for sure they won't just tell anybody.

So then soon after, Dalia joined our lunch group. She is obsessed with Yousph. So she heard Erica, Karen, and me and now she knows too. She is also one of the people that just loveee to bring it up. >_>

And on Facebook, Tina found out somehow...it was just the weirdest thing. She claims that she just knew, but idk. She actually used to like him back in middle school, but he found out and hated her. So now she hates him...yet she knows.

A while ago, there was a stats quiz that I thought I utterly failed. As in I thought I got an F...literally. He didn't take the quiz that day so obviously he wanted the answers. Me, being all selfish, didn't want to tell because I thought for once in my life it would be so unfair for everyone who didn't take the quiz that day to pass while I had to suffer with my failing score. He actually did say "I hate you; you wouldn't tell me the answers", and Lisa was there at the time. I was just a little surprised by how random that was and then Lisa said, "Haha, I think he likes you". That was meant to be a joke, but I just laughed awkwardly and changed the subject. Well, of course he had other friends who would tell him the answers, and of course he passed the quiz with flying colors. Turns out I didn't fail after all--I got a B, and I was actually ecstatic--definitely better than an F.

And now another person wants to know? I really couldn't have imagined Elizabeth. I only had 1 class with her this year, but how would she "notice" anything? And then she asked about it behind my back.

This is crazy. Ethel, Karen, Katrina, Dalia, Erica, Tina are the ones that really talk about it. Becka, Cynthia, Sela, and Lian just know about it. Lisa, I'm not so sure of. And now Elizabeth is asking her way into it. That's 12 people.

To set things straight: I'm sure doesn't like me that way, and I'm pretty sure the feeling's mutual. He likes someone else, a UHS freshman who is a preppy, pretty cheerleader who he totally hung out with at the Strawberry Festival. I can just tell. In fact, they know each other pretty well and their parents know each other and I think there would be a high chance of them being together if she attended our school.

Even though we hang out in the library behind homeroom WITH OTHER FRIENDS, it doesn't mean anything. We're just good friends. =]

I'm not angry with specific people or anything, but how come whenever I see some of them that subject always gets mentioned? Like today, and the day before, and so on. I know they're never going to tell him directly, I'm just paranoid that he'll somehow find out about all this. It's never going to happen, even if I actually tried. Now please just leave me alone with this, or at least cut out the awkwardness whenever you see us together.